dont even dare;

its the final chapter in this orange book
gotta fill the basket this season
so frail and rigid, turning into perfection
I'd get sad if you fell in love with a carrot
for the best, forget about the rest
impossible for someone like you
oh baby
oh baby, don't even test.

don't fall for an onion
he'll make you cry
after you cut him, you'd probably die
fall in love with me
I'll treat you right

dont ever say I wasn't there for you
girl you sat and laughed
trouble like you doesn't always last

rejuvinate the universe;;

...sucks to be on the left side of the plane

GUESSWATT!

i care too much about youuu ;[

yuppz

and i said maybe
you're gona be the that saves me

astair

ahhh this puts an ease to my life

rejected

wrote this on Mar 25, 2008

i am smart :]
_______________________________
so it seems tonight we’re getting rough
do you need to be so abrupt?

Don’t squint your eyes, its just for show

Dont forget me when you are old

Keep it up, remember how it feels

To be in such love

Im sitting at the doctor

People are saying "follow me"

They want me to bottle it up, bottle it up

Baby, lets go home

Don’t squint your eyes, its just for show

Keep it up, don’t try too hard

For something that will never come

You fooled me once or twice

The boy inside me held on twine

Spoiled our clock in time

You fooled me once or twice

The boy inside me held on tight

But baby, don’t kill the day

Learning, drawing, sketching and erasing our map of love

Remember these directions by heart

Becoming trained by our hearts

juicing existance

TUMBLR is way better than blogger.

stand upp

Alone

Be my passenger

I AM A MONKEY

stooped like a chimp
I dont see the obvious
using feet to peel my chest
giving you my heart into your hands
beating vivid against the wind
until you dropped it
now its covered in sand.

feed me peanuts like an elephant

mask the way you feel

Everybody seeks happiness, the feeling of absolute leisure is a fantasy. And what are we racing for if this happiness and leisure is right in front of you. Its staring at your face, your legs. With ease, we are just a blink of an eye and one glimpse of life. Fading away so deeply into the deep.

And memories of love is the only thing we will have in the end.

McFearless

ohhhh its natural instinct;; God I love playing drums

an awesome sonnet__

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
Write, for example, 'The night is shattered
And blue stars shiver in the distance'.
The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.
Through the nights like this one I held her in my arms.
I kissed her over and over again under the endless sky.
She loved me, sometimes I did love her too.
How could I not have loved her great eyes.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.
To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.
What does it matter if my love could not keep here
The night is shattered and she is not with me.
This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied because it has lost her.
My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is no longer with me.
The same night whitening the same trees.
We both of that time are no longer the same.
I no longer love her, that's true, but how much I have loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.
Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before.
Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes.
I no longer love her, that's true, but maybe I do love her.
Love is so short and forgetting is so long.
Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
My soul is not satisfied because it has lost her.
Though this is the last pain that she makes me suffer
And these the last verses I do write for her.

-Pablo Neruda

h0ly chett

All ive done was try to make this work

You’re the traitor that wrecked this ride

Yeah, we all have problems

But if you want it

So come and get it

If you think we can make it

Then come on lets make it

Cant you see?

the structure I built is great!

If I say anything you’ll say its bullshit

If I said I love you, you would stop and say goodbye

If I do anything you’ll tell me it’s God-damn a lie!

Freedom! Freedom! Freedom!

Freedom! Freedom!

there is a place and time:

So lets forget about it all
lets find a way to settle this
because im falling down, im falling down
I gotta find a way
find a way mmyea
I gotta get home, before its too late
Its too late to settle. Its an enduring race.
we’re stuck in the gradient of time x2

for every time we stood our ground and fought a war
onto what was found, signaling what is true

dont close your eyes its not over yet
ive suffered enough to know
ive never felt so well, so alive, i feel the air
how did this delusion come?
take it away, drown this fire,
sleep as you will, baby never give up.
this might be the end

for every time we stood our ground and fought a war
onto what was found, signaling what is true

im falling down, im falling down
we’re stuck into tranquility
dreaming for an everlasting harmony

lean

i guess i dont have much to offer
but i do have Graham Crackers
and when i have crackers
i have the eternal sunshine of love.

it's all i got, baby
i'll make your shoes bright.

you're an asshole
and i deserve better.

truth lit the day into night
i'll try my best, love
oh i'll try my best
to hold on tight
-meeeeeee

amist it all

• "It is in vain to say human beings ought to be satisfied with tranquillity: they must have action; and they will make it if they cannot find it."

• • "Prejudices, it is well known, are most difficult to eradicate from the heart whose soil has never been loosened or fertilised by education: they grow there, firm as weeds among stones."

girl, you seem so nice.

im packing up tonight
gathering up the papers
wrapping them so tight
lover, im going to be late
i'll buy a ticket for the next flight

i'll put everything in the bag
i dont know the reason.
remember this moment
because i honestly wont
i remember the second chance
you'll stand alone
those trees just wont leave
remember i picked you up
held you tight into the crowd who laughed
you made the evening into a black night
so quickly, i couldnt even fight.

dont even dare;

its the final chapter in this orange book
gotta fill the basket this season
so frail and rigid, turning into perfection
I'd get sad if you fell in love with a carrot
for the best, forget about the rest
impossible for someone like you
oh baby
oh baby, don't even test.

don't fall for an onion
he'll make you cry
after you cut him, you'd probably die
fall in love with me
I'll treat you right

dont ever say I wasn't there for you
girl you sat and laughed
trouble like you doesn't always last

noodzzszss's

i can never keep myself from the feelings i have for you
dont get ahead of yourself in something so new
we all know how to feel
then human instict gets in the way
you'll fight your way through the wall that you've built
then you'll be circling back
to find out what was the thrill.

your a sickness my sweetheart
so far away from everything
so far away
so far away
so far away from everything
lets get known
ill climb so high up on top of a tree
just to get away, but you were nowhere
and now i am free
your like a sickness, but so far away
you kept me from flying
i was down, so far away from the clouds
i couldnt breath, i couldnt sleep
because the rain kept me down

glisten in my head

you’re figured out. Now we’re selling you by the pound
We’re walking too slow we’re out of time
Im feeling a compromise glisten in my head
A glimpse of someones eyes visual to my sense
scrounging with a clenched fist in the pocket of masked faces
Transmit the feeding wires jumping over weakened moors
I will not support, I will not support.
I cant feel my hands in this world so damaged
the wheels fall apart into the road. Dispersing into flame
But I wont run away. My back is faced between the crashing waves
Im standing firm, feet on the ground. Crash landing innocence
don’t make a sound

youre getting nowhere, you cant defeat the heckled lies.
You gotta face the time
no added prejudice, I will not influence
you gotta fight the mind. Follow the crackled spaces of time
that’s when I took a punch in the face
Admiring excavated blinded souls on ceiling when you dream at night.

living in the moment

i was realllly bored and somehow i came upon a really awesome article about anterograde amnesia. Since the first time i learned about memory the operation of the brain fascinates me all the time. and not only the subject interested me, but sometimes i feel like my memory sucks balls. haha i dont want my brain to rot.

but anyway

even the comments/responses were very inclusive.


check it out: http://www.damninteresting.com/?p=861#more-861

half scooped

i had a dream she saw the earth without me :/

shes ready for summer
the swimming breeze is catching up with my body
it goes round round round
up my legs threw my feet, over and over
it goes round round;; up & down
its catching up with my body
it goes on and on my friend

she bought the flyest shades last week
oh whoa oh, the look on her face makes me tingle and weak
oh yeah, shes ready for summer
recline recline, back into fashion
hot hot summer crawling under the blankets with my heart so true
cry cry battle cry. cry cry battle cry

her bodys so tight i gotta
im gonna make you feel gee-double-oh-dee, good!

in vaine

Attitude, like pepper, adds spice. But add too much, and you're sneezing like crazy.

altercation of a star-tracker

i thought you were someone i can trust
damn im starting to think i talk about my love a litt too much
the fact i hurt myself so much;
i always knew it
i can do anything
i will risk everything
i will do anything
i can do anything
i will risk everything, for you.
i always knew it
you must love my touch.

First Orbit

not a finger!

GOOD NEWS in the news-feed from the glorious Dannyo Matthew Diaz!

*does a little gay dance*

I have an opportunity to schedule an interview at Disneyland in 3 days. I have a few other jobs i have lined upp for this summer; but i think this kind of thing would be pure good times. I thought about working at Dinnylamb from time to time. So this will be a pretty cool experience to get into that jew business.

I have big big plans after I save enough money to buy a car. I have to go right now i'll save that for another one.

IM STOKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there is such a sun setting

along the water
you look so pretty
come near me dont travel any further
i want the moon-lit sky
seize the day
i know our love wont die.

cushioned woopiiiii

Darrell went to the Art Institute last week. He got accepted! He started directing and screen-writing classes a few days ago. I think he is going to be something serious. this dude has a lott of brightt ideas. I like talking high about him because he is one my closest friends; i didnt think we would be friends for this long. i thought we'd be boyfriends by this time. thinking about it only makes me cry. lmfao nah' its just that i am really proud of him. I can't wait to get started on these projects we wrote. he wrote a script a few months ago. Ian and I edited and made is a less budgeted kind of movie. nah its actually gona be a web series. since he is going to that school we can use their studios, cameras, and lighting. I hope he is talking to peeps at the school about helping us. We spent 3 days in a week to post audition flyers around hollywood film schools, mtSAC & Citrus colleges. we already have a full cast for the first episode, only need 2 more!! yeah so there are things to be done and time definitely a relevant role. <.3
I have high hopes for the future. This will open a lott of doors.
I like hearing Darrell thanking me for being his sexy agent man lol he was trying to convince me into getting into the school with him. i have other goals i will talk about later. but i believe since he is creating something so original he will earn royalties for what he makes. he will fsure get a fatt check if he sells an idea or two. Aeeyyy-yaa Cant wait to live in his baller mansion and i better be that foo's best man when both dottie and him seal the deal.
wakkaWAKka!

in the end

one day we will give the music another chance
did you hear that? that smell seeps threw thick and thin
why dont you wait here baby
wait here while we seek for more sin
i can make the earth stop in its tracks
i can chase what is high and write down what you lack
"i am the lizard king
i can do anything!"